Welcome to my kitchen this month fellow IMKers! October has been a progressively better month for me, I finally started to climb out of the dark hole that was August - it was a kind of grief in saying goodbye to my old life and starting life again in France. One of the hardest things has been people saying things like "oh it's so exciting that you get to live in France" or "Paris is the most beautiful city in the world". I just didn't know what to say to those people, who were well-intentioned but their comments struck at a time when I was so low and I felt all alone in feeling like I was having a hard time. Anyway, this is IMK and not In My Life so let's get on with the kitchen...
Things I baked this month...
I don't remember if I mentioned it previously, but my sourdough son Barney has been (sympathetically?) depressed since the move to France. Whatever I tried, he was giving awful flat loaves that were making me even more depressed. I finally decided to try and fix him this month... Starting with twice daily feeding and rehoming in the fruit bowl to try and pick up some of the local yeast..
Improving... not quite there, but he did make some pretty good bagels
A loaf definitely on the improve...
A cinnamon cranberry babka I made for music! My friend was visiting from Toronto and we headed off to S' friend's place to play piano quartets - the Brahms in C minor and the Faure. The texture of this babka was still not quite right, but I was just glad and so happy to be baking something to share with others! And of course to be playing music in a big group again.
A cranberry sourdough loaf with the rest of the cranberries.. on the improve again!
And finally an excellent loaf! I was so glad when Barney came back to life. I haven't been this excited about baking bread for a few years.
This was a challah symbolising unity that I made last week.
Followed by sourdough pitas in solidarity with all the people in the zone who are unable to access bakeries due to the war. We ate them with some falafels and a homemade tahini sauce for lunch one day.
Other things in my kitchen...
I'm glad you and Barney are both feeling more upbeat and collaborating on beautiful bakes! It's been many years since I had a kitchen in Paris, so one surprise to me is cranberries! They were never available at that time, unless you went to a shop that specialized in American import foods. I hope you'll soon be seriously happy to be where you are.
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Thanks for visiting Mae! It's funny that you mention cranberries, the Americans in the expat group I've joined were also talking about how hard it was to get fresh cranberries here.
DeleteI think that all change- good or bad- is difficult to adjust to. Glad you are feeling somewhat better. The breads all look fabulous to me !
ReplyDeleteYou are right Judee, all change is change and as such humans find it hard to adapt. But the resilience of the human spirit is amazing!
DeleteOh, a trip to the sea is always worth it! And it seems Barney is mirroring your journey out of depression, and helping! I hope this moth is even better! hugs to you
ReplyDeleteThank you for your kind words Tandy, I hope that Barney and I will have more good things to report soon :)
DeleteChange can be difficult. I'm glad you're feeling a bit better. Your photo's are all making me drool. Love the challah heart. It looks fabulous. I hope this month is even better.
ReplyDeleteThanks for visiting Lori and sharing in the baked goods love :)
Deletethanks so much for joining in. I have been feeling very down myself lately, so i hope we both start to perk up:=) all the best to you. Love your sourdough efforts. Yes the ocean is a marvellous pick-me-up! cheers and best wishes!! xx
ReplyDeleteThanks so much Sherry for hosting IMK despite all the things on your plate, it is such a mood boost for me to look back over the photos I've taken in a month. Hang in there and we'll both get through these tough times xx
DeleteChange can be very hard. I am glad that both you and Barney are starting to feel better. Be kind to yourself.
ReplyDeleteThank you Marg for your kind comment, it is indeed a good idea to remember to be kind and compassionate to oneself, something that we don't do enough of in society unfortunately
DeleteThe beach outing definitely needs it's own Mastercard ad/You Tube video. Looks like you and Barney are finding your groove - your bakes look absolutely outstanding. What I would give for a slice of your challah! Sending hugs x
ReplyDeleteHi Sammie I can just imagine exactly how I would direct the ad to be made, maybe in a sportscar with the wind in our hair, laughing as we approach the sea, eating an icecream... you're right, it's priceless!
DeleteThe ocean is a very healing place. I have read that our heartbeats and breathing adjust to the rhythm of the waves. It is, after all, our original home. I hope you are starting to feel more yourself amid the disruptions of moving yet again. Brilliant idea to put Barney near the fruit. And, as always, your baking is amazing.
ReplyDeleteThanks Liz for visiting! Barney and I have been through a lot together and I wonder how much more we will go through together in life!
DeleteIt was lovely to read your post from Paris, and I'm sorry you haven't been coping well. Moving can be so stressful, and it can take a long while to settle in. I love seeing all of your sourdough achievements, I would be immensely thrilled with those. I am trying to get back into sourdough baking. My son and family live in Montpellier in France and I was there for two months earlier in the year, and extended my stay because my daughter in law was very ill, and she still is. So even reading anything you post on France will help me feel as if I am connecting with them in a way. I also love to do some French cooking so any recipes you share I will enjoy. Take care, and I also love that your are a musician, that will be so healing for you. How do I subscribe to your blog posts? Warm wishes, Pauline
ReplyDeleteThanks for visiting Pauline. I hope your daughter in law is doing a bit better, it's so tough to have an ill member of the family, such a worry and so little we can do. France and Australia are also so far apart! Take care and sending you lots of love x
DeleteI do hope you and Barney are better and this next month brings you joy!
ReplyDeleteThanks Debra, I hope so too!
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